Quick Update.

I have been slacking a little.  It’s normal for me, though, to not write daily.  I try but then I fail.  I usually welcome the fail before I fail.  That way I’m not disappointed.

It’s basically been a week since I began this and it’s not been too horrible.  I have obstacles, just like anyone else, that I have to jump.  Some of them make it hard – like the fact that I’m still fat.  Yeah.  I had one of those moments – where you go exercise and feel fantastic then get a glimpse of yourself && realize you’re still fat.  It’s heart breaking!  But it’s okay.  One day at a time.

Monday & Tuesday weren’t good days.  They weren’t horrible days – but they weren’t good.  That’s okay though.  I woke up late on Monday (I work that night) so I didn’t have time to get in some exercise or making my own dinner.  So I ended up eating a chicken fried steak sandwich from Toby’s Keith’s & chips & dip.  It was delicious but was it worth the calories?  Probably not…

Tuesday is my first day off, however, getting home at 6 in the morning I tend to sleep until afternoon to early evening.  So I woke up with enough time to make dinner – ended up making chicken parm with spaghetti and meatballs.  Yeah!  That’s right.  When I ruin my diet I ruin it well.  But if it makes everyone feel better – it made my stomach hurt and I was in the bathroom most of the night getting it out.

My stomach was pissed off!

Tonight we’re having hamburgers & hot dogs but have no fear I’m doing it the smart way.  I’m not going to over due it.  I exercised today – had Boyfriend && his daughter join me.  0.73 miles.  21 minutes.  Doesn’t take me long to do it but like I said, I shoot for at least 20 minutes because that’s a lot compared to nothing.

I’ll end this one really quick – dinner is done.  After I eat and Boyfriend goes to work I’ll come back and ramble some more.

Enjoy your day!

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End of Day One.

Normally I will update the day I’m on however last night while cooking dinner I aggravated myself somehow and just wanted the day to end.  So I went to bed.

My goal of calories for the day is 1,910.

I started the day off on a high note.  I was so proud of myself.  Woke up way too early (I hate waking up that early for any reason whatsoever) and made myself breakfast.  Decided to use the night before left overs which was a small pork chop.  Diced it up and added spinach, white onion, and mushrooms.  Sautéed all of that together and then added three eggs, yes, seriously, I added three eggs.  Horrible habit I must break.  Then I made some shredded hash browns and sprinkled some hot sauce over it.  All of that together was 433 calories.

I live in an apartment complex and there is a side walk that circles the buildings.  I figured it had to be really close to a mile  which usually takes me about thirty minutes to walk.  So after breakfast, too close to breakfast && it made me a little sick, so I took a walk around the complex.  It took me 20 minutes to walk 0.73 miles.  Which sucks, but it’s okay.  20 minutes is better than nothing.

I couldn’t find the fill line of my stomach yesterday so all day I stayed hungry but I knew I’d need a little extra calories for dinner so I decided just to toughen it out.  So around a normal lunch time I made a small lunch.  Boiled some pasta, added a can of tuna, with mushrooms, white onion and spinach then made a small fruit salad with apple, banana, & kiwi.  That came out to be 451 calories.

I know that one of the hardest parts of changing the way you eat is feeling hungry when you logically know you’re not.  Have to find ways to make things filling so you don’t feel like that.  However, it takes me some time to figure out the line.  I had to run up to the store for some flour and I ended up eating a monster size Slim Jim (270 calories).  Yep!  Seriously.  I knew better and logically I knew there was something better for me at the store but I ate it anyway.  I finally got to the point where I didn’t feel like I was starving.  (Please don’t let my feeling of that detour anyone from redoing their eating habits.  Even before sometimes the more I ate the more hungry I felt.  So it’s just me.)

Once home I began making dinner and ended up having a chicken fried steak, green beans with bacon, mushrooms & onions, and a side of Rice O Roni (Rice Pilaf flavor).  (723 calories)  Sometime during the process of making this my mood shifted and I ended up getting really upset.  I have no idea why or how or anything.  But… I did & I ended up eating in silence, and then going to bed and laying there in the dark for a few hours before dozing off.

But.  Sadly before that I ended up eating ice cream that I didn’t have the calories for (I had 33 calories left because I don’t add in the exercise calories).  I think it was between 90 & 150 calories.  That’s where I stood that day I don’t even know how many calories was in the ice cream.

It’s okay though!  Completely okay!  Today is a new day and I just have to get back on.  Heck it’s only day two.  So I can’t get too mad at myself.

Day One Continued…

I’m going to drown you people with blogs.  I hope you’re ready for this….

At least today.  I’m sure they’ll start dwindling as the days progress.  I’m eventually going to get mad about that bucket of chicken.

Here are my rules for my weight loss.
1. No getting mad at myself if I fall off the wagon.
If one day I decide to eat that bucket of chicken in one sitting with a gallon of extra sweet, sweet tea watching reruns of my 600-Pound life crying like a two year old.  I will not get mad at myself.  I’ll just dust off the chicken crumbs, throw away the tea jug, stop watching that show (it makes me cry every time) and move on to the next day.  Tomorrow is always a new day…

2.  I will NOT keep anything from my diet.
I see a lot of people fail because they decide that they can not eat bread, pasta, rice, sugar (I barely eat this anyway), cakes, pies, etc.  So they pull it from the house and their daily consumption.  Here is what I learned the first time around: if I take something away and tell myself I’m not allowed to eat it.  I’m going to eat it.  And I’m going to eat a lot of it.  So, if I tell myself that I can have it, I’ll still eat it.  But I’m going to eat it reasonably.  So, if I want a piece of birthday cake – I’ll eat it.  Although, I don’t eat much sweets which makes me a weird fat person.  I make it up elsewhere, don’t worry.

3. Exercise is a must.
So what?  I only get in twenty minutes one day.  I won’t hate myself for that either.  I’m going to take that 20 minutes & be proud of myself.  (Went for a walk this morning and realized it only took me 20 minutes – I was aiming for at least 30.  I guess I walked too fast.)  Some doctors and specialists say that 20 minutes a day is perfect.

4. Have a cheat day!
Some say a cheat day detours you.  I don’t agree.  I’m also not a doctor or specialist – just a fat person trying to not fail.  When I pulled off the 50 pounds in three or four months I gave myself a cheat day.  It was payday and I would take myself to the Chinese place a couple towns over.  I eventually stopped going and did it less.  (I get paid bi-weekly.)  But I left that option there because it’s the only thing I find myself craving.

5. Give in to your cravings.
It sounds kind of weird.  But.. if you crave it.  Eat.  It.  If have a craving for something and tell yourself you can’t have it you’re going to be eating any & everything you can to fill that void.  So ladies, if you’re craving chocolate.  Eat it.  Just don’t eat the whole candy bar.  It’s possible, I promise.

6. Be lazy.
I toyed with this one for a while.  I always figured if you want to lose weight you can’t just sit & do nothing.  You always have to be up && doing something.  But when I realized that I am allowed to do nothing & just watch television, I was able to stay on track better.  You look at a lot of the well built people – body builders – gym goers… they always seem to be doing something.  So why can’t I find something to do?  Sometimes you just don’t have anything to do.  (Keep in mind you get exercise by doing household chores.  Laundry.  Dishes.  Sweeping.  Vacuuming.  Playing with your children.)

7.  Take a breather.
Don’t be stupid and over do it.  Your body will tell you how far and how much you’re able to do.  Don’t be stupid and go too far, too long, and kill yourself.  That’s pretty much more dangerous than being overweight.

8.  Eat your pizza.
This seems to be the one thing people hate giving up besides cheese, of course.  Don’t give it up.  Eat it.  Just don’t go crazy.  If you’re like me and cannot get full off of two to three slices… add a salad.  Yum!  Who doesn’t love salad?  Stop looking at me like that.  Eat a salad along with those two to three slices.  Yes, it’s a lot of calories, but so is the food you’re going to eat trying to fill that pizza void.  Just eat it.

9.  Don’t do it alone.
I’m not saying put everyone in your house on a diet.  What I am saying is to cook for everyone the same way.  There is absolutely nothing wrong with cooking better for other people.  Switching out baked fried chicken for oil fried chicken is healthy for everyone.  Having a turkey burger rather than a beef burger.. chicken rather than steak.    I mean, hey!  If you can make them fried chicken && not eat as much of it, all power to you!  I can eat one piece and walk away.  But I’m weird. :)

10. Don’t expect a miracle.
You didn’t put the weight on in one day no matter what you think.  It took years to get to the weight you’re at and you cannot expect to pull it off in one day or one week.  Or even one month.  Give yourself realistic goals and set them for yourself.  Realistic means something you know you can accomplish.  Don’t tell everyone that you’re going to pull off 100 pounds in six months.  Logically that is dumb.  You’re only supposed to lose 2-3 pounds a week, that’s only 8-12 pounds a month.  Stop setting yourself up for disappointment!

Some after thoughts:
Drink water.  Don’t get me wrong I will not give up soda, fact – I have a 2 liter diet cherry diet pepsi in my kitchen.  However, now instead of drinking a 2 liter in one day I can now make it stretch to at least a week.  I have put in more water in my diet because it’s good for you.  Don’t like straight water?  Crystal Light!  I freaking LOVE crystal light.  Especially the pink lemonade & cherry limeade.
Keep a food diary.  I have an app on my phone called FitnessPal.  It’s easy to use, quick, and I absolutely enjoy the app.  I also use one called Runtastic for exercising purposes.  It took me a few minutes to figure out but once you do it’s great!  I have looked at other apps thinking maybe there was a better one, but I haven’t found one that I like more than the two I have.
Explore with seasonings when cooking. You can make any and everything taste fantastic when you find seasonings that you like.
Find a hobby.  One of the problems I found I was having with losing weight is that I wasn’t thinking about anything ever other than food.  It was literally my first thought when I woke up, every thought during the day, and last thought before going to sleep.  Until I was around nineteen when I realized my food habits is in fact a problem and I found a hobby – which anyone who has followed me for a while knows it’s writing.  So now, my first, middle & last thought of the day is writing.  What to write about?  How to write it?  When will I write it?  Who is going to read it?  Who might like it?  I find myself lately only thinking about food when I’m laying in bed (when I’m too lazy to get up and eat) or when I am hungry.  Or when it’s time for medication.  Plus, I read somewhere from a specialist, I don’t remember where or when, but it said the urge to eat/snack/pack fried chicken in your face only lasts about ten minutes.  Once you get past the ten minute mark, usually you don’t have the urge to eat anymore.  Is it true?  I don’t know, I usually get angry when I don’t eat.  I’m working on that.
If I can give any advice right now to anyone.  It will always be “don’t be afraid to eat”.  I get it, whatever you put in your mouth stays.  I understand that.  I’ve fought weight issues all my life and up until lately I didn’t realize there are simple things you can do to fix it.  SIMPLE.  When you become afraid to eat you lose all power you have over food.  It wins.  && you cannot let it win.  You have to be the one who wins over it.  Right now it has a lot of power over you && once you realize why, or how… you can become victorious!

You’re probably thinking.. what gives you any right to tell me how to fix something when you are still overweight yourself.  Well… stay put, walk with me and follow along… and I will prove it to you && actually tell you what I eat and how many calories it is.  I will tell you how I feel afterwards, and everything.  I promise to prove to you everything I will say works for me.  &&&& I honestly feel like it would work for you to.

Keep wishing me luck!
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