English in school whether it was middle school or high school had one thing in common. At the beginning of the year we were told to buy a notebook and we usually all picked out the same black & white notebook with wide lines that costs a $0.97 cents at the local Wal-Mart. (I actually have three of them in my bedroom right now.) We, as students, knew exactly what it was for so we made sure to get the notebook with wide lines. (When not for school, I never buy wide lines – the more the better for me.) We’d start school and the teacher would explain that this notebook, this cheap white wide ruled notebook, was our notebook and every day we needed to write at least half of a page about anything and everything. && everyone had the same reaction to it – the inability to write anything ever. We all ended up waiting until the day before it was due and we would just scribble a bunch of crap. I remember one year I sat and write “blah, blah, blah” over && over until I took up half of a page. The teacher always said they’d never read it but you know they at least glanced through it &&& probably didn’t like seeing twenty to thirty pages of nothing but blah in very large print – one letter covering three lines, it was almost as if I had just started writing again.
I think back on it now && find it quite hilarious that I had such a hard time writing in that ‘journal’. Even when I hit college I found it hard to write in a journal – yes, in one of my English Composition classes she wanted us to keep a journal (half a page in one notebook). I ended up writing a short story instead, which it would seem that would be the harder part – but it took me twelve hours to write a full short story (which I have ruined since then).
I suppose through the years it hasn’t gotten any better, I still have trouble sometimes writing more than I ought to, but I’m not perfect so it’s not like I can cough and spit words out. Although, that would be FANTASTIC if it were possible. Because then – yes! I could have thirteen novels ready to go. But no, I can’t do that. I have to type the words that are put to paper and sometimes my brain breaks. Okay, my brain breaks often, but no worries! I may have issues sometimes writing, I’ll never give up on writing.
Just like cooking.
It’ll always be there.
I don’t think I stayed on topic.